I like Blogs

It's really nice to be able to go back and read what you have blogged. Sometimes the tears flow and it's a little difficult to go back to the place you were at the time of the post. Although there is a small part of me that wants to rewrite history I know that I have no power to change the past. Moving forward, loving the time and place in my life. Friends remain, some change & move away not forgotten, unseen for a time. Reunion of life loved and lost. Mothers arms that will hold me once again. She tells me everything is going to be just fine. Fathers strong and tall no longer frail and unused. I long for the past but can not go there. I must wait for Him that decides what is best. If I really want to take a look back I should get my photo's organized. They are packed away like so many things in my past. Look to the future. Unable to organize what is coming. Preparation for the days unseen. Good idea, better get on that.

I hope !

I hope I see more holidays like the one we had last Sunday. Hope there is so much love in our lives that we feel compelled to hug one another spontaneously. Hope that everyone will be well. Hope that we still like each other. Hope we are still active members of our church. Hope that the grand-daughters will remember to be young. Hope that Grandpa & I don't grow old too soon. Hope that music is still playing in my head. Hope that we go the beach often. Hope that we are better financially prepared. Hope that we don't have to use any of our insurances. Hope that today is better than all my yesterdays. Hope that we love one another in this world. Hope that the world is a better place because I was here. Hope that Mitch, Willy & Doug enjoy the love that their parents have shared. Hope there will always be Temples. Hope that my Heavenly Father is pleased with my actions & words. Hope that I always have hope. Hope that my Faith is strong enough for this mortal existence. Hope that I still smile when I see newly married couples. Hope that my love for mankind grows with every passing day. Hope that my friends & family will have all that they need in this life. Hope that we can forgive and be forgiven. Hope that when I die there will be tons of music and funny stories. Hope that the flowers keep blooming for all those who see. Hope that my mom & dad are accepting the gospel. Hope that my brothers will learn from our families example. Hope that I live up to my potential so that the Angels can be my associates. Hope that I never speak unkindly of my brothers and sisters. Hope that I always care more about people than things. Hope I don't get suffocated in my sleep. (not kidding) Hope that when I meet my maker I don't say something stupid. Hope that all the world knows that Heavenly Father loves, thinks and reveres us. Hope that I'm never a hypocrite. Hope that I don't fall down. Hope that if I fall I will get back up. Hope that my family knows how much I love them. Hope that Heavenly Father knows how much I need him in my life. Hope that I cry, laugh & have fun along the way. Hope that my days are spent wisely. Hope that Merl passes before me, because I don't want to be the cause of his pain. Hope that the next generation of McKnights are in tune with the Holy Ghost. Hope that they are tough, humble, funny & forgiving. Hope that I stay in tune with the Spirit so that I don't make poor choices. Hope that I can drag my sorry butt to the gym all the days of my life. I hope!