Well things just happen

Tard I R. CRS. Don't know how I blogged in Willy's blog. Ooops my bad. Feel free to delete if it's possible. Sorry no excuses. User not demonstrating a proficiency in blogging. May be at risk of embarrassing others. As I posted on Willy's blog, (YA NOT MY BLOG) I will repeat "Ya, I like money." I just don't know what I'm doing most of the time. Must take a course ASAP. I'm going to Greece mid October. It will be a very good thing. There's only one problem with the trip. I'm going to school to learn "how to teach English as a second language." Me teaching others. YA RIGHT! I'd hoped to blog while in Greece. It's a very intensive 4 week program, Monday through Sunday each and every week. I might make a fool of myself. However, there is a good thing that comes from traveling a great distance. No one knows me! If they speak in Greek I won't know what they are saying. No pains no gains! RIGHT? Life is good. I'm a Tard. I'm ok with that. My family still loves me. Ok, Willy may be less than pleased. However, I'm thinking that he could really take advantage of this demonstration in tardness. Laughter is good for the soul.

One coma please?

Silly, funny & euphoric all mixed in with other negative feelings. No, not negative feelings. Feelings you don't like to feel. All necessary but unwanted by the mind and body. Why must we feel? Knowing the bitter from the sweet? I think I'd just like to be unaware. Mindless and senseless, a coma sounds good for the moment. Just a short break in routine. After a while the dishes would pile up and chores would be undone. But, messes always wait for me. What the heck, why not a short coma? They do it in science fiction movies. Why not in my life. A silly notion indeed but a silly notion welcomed. But then it really isn't as pleasant as the movies reveal. They leave out the disgusting body parts that no one really wants to know about. OK, so I want a state of deep sleep with out potty. Not asking for much, right? What happens when you wake? Do all the feelings come rushing back to you? I guess I'll just keep on plodding along and hope for one good nights sleep.

Questions

Tears fall, pain grips my heart. Unanswered questions, thoughts random & fleeting. Why do we mourn when life is better for "The One"? Our hearts ache for The One is gone from our eyes. Ever present yet illusive. Why? questions formed but never given utterance. We believe! we shout to our souls. Knowing that this pain will depart. When? Questions, what is the lesson to be learned? What are the right questions? May I learn the right questions quickly so there is no more pain? No more pain that grips my heart and drops me to my knees. We stay earth bound for those around us. All the while in our minds shouting when is it my turn, and yet fighting to stay. Sudden and unexpected, it's the worst especially amongst the young. Why? Thoughts too painful to reveal. Can't talk to the ones we love the most. They too will be gripped by grief. Seen and felt too many tears. Can't scratch the surface revealing the pain beneath. Platitudes, Ya, I'm fine.